I realised all the things I was scared of (what might people think? What if I fail? Who am I to do this work?) were all stories that I’d made up that 99% of the time only existed in my head.
I knew I shouldn’t be scared of them but I still was.
Intellectually I know you probably get this too, but when we still spend our lives trying to push down and outrun those beliefs, trying to prove them wrong, it still feels like there is something to run from, to be ashamed of, and this keeps us stuck.
It wasn’t until I became comfortably facing them did they lose their power over me (another major major key!)
Which brought me to perhaps the biggest turning point of them all.
It was time to CLEAN HOUSE.
This is where I had to go back and look at all of the 'stuff' that had happened in my life to date. The stuff that I had been pushing down and running from, the stuff that made me feel guilty and ashamed, the stuff I swore I’d never let other people know.
I’m talking past hurts, relationships, jealousy, resentments, family stuff, anger, harm done to me and harm I’d done, my fears, my doubts, my dreams and my secrets. All of it.
This wasn’t about digging up the past to see how much of a naughty boy I’d been.
It was about realising that given what I’d experienced that OF COURSE I was going to end up with the beliefs I had.
It was incredibly healing. It was incredibly freeing.
It was like taking off a backpack full of bricks that I didn’t realise I’d been carrying around for a couple of decades. I didn’t have to do the old patterns anymore. They were no longer a part of who I was. This is an experience I wish for you also. I’m yet to see a single person do this process with us and not be a fundamentally different person as a result. It’s actually not possible.
This was something I’d never got in all the other personal development programs and it was honestly one of those “life-before-this-process" and then "life-after-this" experiences .